Many times in life we come across situations where we introspect. I think we all do it a lot whether we agree to it or not. Many times there are situations where the unanswered things in life suddenly get an answer. We face a challenge and we are sure that it’s something we won’t be able to do and it just happens and we complete it somehow. Some hidden force drives us and we just don’t know how things happen. If you ponder over it again you do feel that it was not possible on that very moment but its mysterious how things connected and finalized. You might have said many times that “yar pata nahi kaise ho gaya...bas ho gaya!” And there is no answer to it because to understand someone in a situation, you need to be in that situation.
Don’t you feel alone or lost even whenever there are so many people around you? Do you feel a void or a vacuum within you which is just mystifying, inexplicable and unfathomable? We all feel a vacuum inside us and then we question our identity but as always thinking about the answers makes it even denser and coagulated. Why sometimes we feel life is going so well and out of the blue a moment comes where things turn around 180 degrees. Suddenly the rosy life becomes a pressure vessel where we are stuck and there is no way out. A nanosecond mood swing can bring about a change so drastic that our thinking comes to a standstill. The same world seems cunning and we start to foster wrong gist of life. The whole essence of well being is lost somewhere and random thoughts spawn in our brain which is the so called supercomputer.
1) We run away from so many things but they are the ones which pop up again and again, even though you tried hard enough to smother them?
2) Why sometimes you want to do so much and you end up doing nothing?
3) Why suddenly a feeling unsaid grows strong and some day it bursts out of you, that too at a completely wrong time, wrong moment and wrong place?
4) Why sometimes, someone you knew so well figures out to be the one, you never knew before?
Well the answer tricks us by camouflage and it wants to remain veiled somewhere within us and is as mystical as it can get, it’s as shaman as it can be and it’s as complicated as simplicity is. We introspect, we retrospect we do all sort of things but the answer just lies within reaching distance. More we try to grab it, the farther it goes. So let it come to you rather than you probing for it, it’s like those floaters near the corner of the eyes, the more you want to catch them the more they float away.
P.S. If you have answers to my questions do write me back, I’ll be happy to hear you.